Are bygones really gone? - decoding New Year, New Me.

If you are in the sphere of people who know me, you ofcourse know about a trip I took recently. Because I just cannot shut up about how good it was. I have become one spiti brand ambassador. Not going to lie, I DESPERATELY NEEDED that break (yes, all caps, that’s how much I needed it) Why so much pressure and expectations on a trip, you ask? I was very low with everything going on in my life and well, I was going with a group of strangers, pahadon mein and to this mystical land. And by the rules of Imtiaz Ali, Zoya Akhtar and Ayan Mukherjee, this is bound to change your life. But no I am not that filmy as well, I knew that life movie thodi hai. I genuinely wanted to spend time by myself and think through some things. 

What to do when you're feeling

 

Some days you have a feeling inside you that troubles you as soon as you wake up. That makes everything you do feel inconsequential and you just feel meh. When you are not totally sad nor are you totally fine, just hanging there somewhere in between. What do you call this? I call this feeling jnasjdbvhasdas (the indescribe-able) This feeling creeps into you in the most weirdest unannounced ways. It is the bin bulaya mehmaan of feelings. And even though you feel off, you might end up feeling anxious to be desperate to get rid of this. Why am I the expert of this feeling? Because I have been experiencing it recently. Bahar se I am all happy and chill but andar se band toh bajj gayi hai. So ab? Kya kar sakte hai? As always I have some thoughts about it. Actual solutions that might help. And maybe by writing about it I will help myself too! 

In-Dependent

 

Our life starts at the hands of two individuals who had no clue what they were creating. You can romanticize is by calling it destiny, fate or simply plain biology, but you were a plain clay that was to be moulded by these two people. How can you not treat them as heavenly creatures? They created you! Of course, you will look upto them! Of course you will need their validation! Of course you need them to be proud of the person they created! You will ofcourse always be desperate for them to tell you how good a person you are. But we always forget of what they were before being our creators ; just 2 simple different adults. With dreams, ideologies, habits, beliefs of their own. 

Books Every Girl Should Read

 

Reading has always been an important part of my development. The stories I read have always inspired me in some form or the other. Being an avid reader meant always being on the hunt for more and more books to devour. I have had my share of bad experiences which I have mentioned in this blog : 5 books I regret reading. But there are a few stories that always stayed with me especially the ones with central female characters. Since I always saw strong male characters on screen (thanks to Bollywood), reading about female characters was very inviting. Though the books I have mentioned are based on women, they have strong male characters too. Heck one of them has Lord Krishna himself. This list includes book across various genres and I highly recommend each and every book mentioned. So if you love reading and are looking for inspirational stories or stories that move you, save this blog post!

Love in MY aaj kal

 Anybody who knows me knows how much in love my parents are and how much in love I am with them. It was a love marriage between an Udupi Konkani and Gujarati with a considerable amount of age difference. And even after all these years they still behave like a cute teenage couple. Of course, I grew up believing this is what happens with everyone and it’s highly normal. But when I did actually grow up, I could only hear about marriages falling apart, people losing their own selves in trying to make it work or much worse staying in a loveless marriage just as a machine working a daily routine. It all horrified me. Still, watching my parents daily somehow strengthened my quest for wanting that. But, here we are, me writing this because clearly not everything worked according to how I wanted it to.